At some point, we all ask: “what I am doing with my life?”. This isn’t a bad question, but a better question might be: “what is God doing in my life?” or “what has God done in my life?” These are more productive questions.
God is faithful and He has led us this far. We need to put our trust in God, who is here with us. When we stop doing so much activity, it can leave us feeling bare, exposed and uncomfortable. Activity can mask an inward lack, a lack of healing within. Look at the story of Mary and Martha in Luke 10. Martha was “distracted with much serving” while her sister sits at Jesus’ feet, listening to Him. Here’s what Jesus says to her:
Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.
The disciples first came to know and love Jesus as a man and a friend and saviour, and went to activity and mission from a secure foundation of knowing who Jesus was. Let’s allow this to rewire how we think. There’s a danger of ploughing on safe familiar routes but sometimes the Spirit is not with us. We need the fresh commissioning of the Holy Spirit, in order to go. It’s encouraging because God is calling us to Him, let’s focus on Him and come to Him. He will turn us around and send us out.